such a long day

and a long week for that matter

i hate it when i fail at loving

i hate failing in general, but when it has to do with my performance, it may draw tears... when it has to do with that moment where you look in someones eyes and see pain or fear, and knowing you put it there... it tears my heart in two.

i don't want t0 be the one harboring that knife inside my tongue, the one that cuts people down. i don't want to hurt precious people.

this seems to be a theme for me. THE theme. i guess of my life. that i want to be known for my love. i just have to remember that doing it perfect isnt so much the goal as doing it for real.